I did get to finally come home this evening and be with my other little loveys until Saturday =[. I miss them all so much. I'm scared Isaiah's is going to forget me =[.
OMG I still don't know how to really handle all of this. I feel so many things. My emotions are in overdrive..I feel happy, sad, mad, anxious, scared, etc,etc,etc!! I know it's normal to feel this way. But really..you could say hi & I will get tears in my eyes....that's bad! I am scared big time. I never knew it was possible to LOVE someone so much..I love Kayden so much and I'm scared to death. the thoughts of him having a transplant..taking his heart out of his body and putting a new one in..i just don't know, it scares me to death. I love my son so much and I do not want to lose him. I don't think I could go on without him or any of them. My kids are my life, they always have been and always will be. I'm so thankful for my friends and family who have been there for me through his journey..I thank all of the other CHD families who have supported us as well <3 I'm going to go finish my break down..so I can go back to Kayden Saturday facing this coming week stronger than I have been. I thank God for each night I have Kayden, I pray he keeps him safe through everyday and every night & I pray he will watch over him while he waits on & when he gets his new special heart <3 Miracles do happen..I've seen it..I live with a miracle everyday
I am sure there was more I was going to say but I can't think straight right now =/