Strength.Courage.Hope: Broken & I'm never gunna heal..

Friday, July 15, 2011

Broken & I'm never gunna heal..

Sadly I have to say my sweet little baby Kayden James lost his life in the early hours of Thursday morning. He fought a tough battle with a CHD. He passed away at the young age of 3 1/2. For those who knew Kayden they knew how much he enjoyed his self! He always wanted to see his own pictures lol he loved his sister & his brothers. Right now I'm broken my heart is shattered and if I go crazy I guess that'll be okay as well..I never wanted to see this day and I still wish i could wake up from this terrible nightmare...I do know though, that Kayden is no longer in pain, he is no longer hurting..I know I would ask him sometimes if anything hurt, I can see him just shake his head yes, and when I'd say where?, he would take his little finger and point to his heart =[...I miss him more than words could ever say. I do know I was blessed to have 3 years with my sweet Angel & I'm so thankful he had amazing doctors who looked out for him and who will remember him as well. Kayden impacted many many MANY lives and those lives will be changed always! There is nothing I wouldn't do for my son & I know he had a good life <3 I know now that I'll now not be afraid to pass either, because that is when I'll see my Kayden again <3 until then I'll see him in my dreams <3 I love you so much Kayden James ALWAYS AND FOREVER I WILL STAND BY YOU! I hope everyone remembers my sweet Angel <3 Fly High baby boy <3 12/21/07-7/14/11

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AngelaJuly 15, 2011 at 10:19 PM
I am one of those whose life will forever be changed by you and your sons lives. Thank you so much for allowing me the privilege to call you friend. My heart is so broken for you. Please know that no matter how many years pass and you need to break down I will forever be here. (((Heart Hugs)))
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AnonymousJuly 16, 2011 at 6:01 AM
Kayden touched my Life FOREVER!!!! In only 2 short weeks of knowing him and you Misty, he made me realize Life's too short to complain about lil things and to Enjoy Life to the Fullest!!!! I was praying for a Miracle, I'm sorry God wanted an Angel with him in Heaven xoxoxo I cannot imagine your pain, I'd be shattered and I pray for strength for you Misty and your other children Everyday!!! God Bless You and your lil boy Kayden will be with you forever Mama Heart & Soul! Rest in Peace Sweet Kayden ...forever in our hearts xoxoxoxo Amanda, Victor & Garrett xoxoxoxoxo
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TracyJuly 16, 2011 at 10:32 AM
Misty,
I am truely sorry for the lose of little Kayden. I know your heart is breaking now...
Please know also that your in my heart and prayers, as well as your family. And know that little Kayden is in the loving arms of Jesus, free from the pain he suffered here on Earth.
I am here for you anytime you need to talk or scream....my cell is 931.335.0208.
xoxo
Love you guys,
Tracy Russell
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AnonymousJuly 17, 2011 at 1:01 AM
Awwww RIP..Fly High BabyBoy..We All Love And Miss You So Much..I Love You All 4 Life Misty..
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About Me

My name is Misty. I'm 26 years old from Roanoke, VA. I am a single mom to my little ones. I've got 5 kids. Alexis, Kayden, Tavion & Isaiah. Kayden is my little Angel, he went to live with the Angels July 14, 2011 waiting on a heart transplant, he was 3.5 years old. Alexis is my oldest she is almost 9, Tavion is 5, Isaiah is 4, and Elijah is 4 months. I enjoy reading, watching movies, blogging, quiet nights(when possible), and long drives listening to music. I started blogging to tell people about Kayden's journey with a broken heart, now it's about life with him as an Angel & how I deal and you'll also get to know my other little ones. You can also visit Kayden's page at www.kaydenjames.weebly.com or on facebook at www.facebook.com/KaydenJamesCHDAngel

My Family

Little Miss Lexi

Alexis is my first child & my only girl. She was born on February 9, 2006. I found out I was pregnant with Lexi 2 months after I had a miscarriage. I was quite surprised that I was pregnant but I was excited along with scared and nervous. She is the best big sister anyone could ask for. She helps with her brothers & she helps me if I need her to..She is a very smart little girl as well, right now she is in preschool. I can't believe my baby girl is almost in Kindergarten. It's true that time doesn't stop for nothing.

Superman

Kayden took his first breath on December 21, 2007 and took his last breath on July 14, 2011. Kayden was born with a bilateral cleft lip and palate, dilated cardiomyopathy & a displaced tricuspid valve with tricuspid regurgitation. He had 6 surgeries in his 3 1/2 years. He had 3 to complete his cleft lip/palate, pyloric stenosis at a month old, a preauricular cyst removed & open heart surgery on March 17, 2011. He always had a smile on his face no matter how many challenges were thrown his way. I miss my child more than anything in this world. I love Kayden more than words can ever say. I am broken and will never be repaired, he was my life & my heart is shattered since he lost his battle with his CHD. I'll never stop telling his story because people need to be aware of what is possible & I would like to think that Kayden's life will save another child.

Crazy Tavy

My middle boy, Tavion James. Tavion was born on May 13, 2009 at 37 weeks. He was my biggest yet shortest baby born lol! He is a handful right now he is at the age he wants to get into everything. Although he is small still he holds his ground and has an attitude. He is starting to get into the terrible twos which is never fun but we will survive. He's an amazing little boy and always keep us smiling. Tavion has no health problems that we've noticed and hopefully he continues to stay that way.

Superman's Baby

Isaiah James was welcomed into the world on December 16, 2010 at 3:02 a.m. He weighed 7 lbs 11 oz. & was 20 1/2 inches!! He had a head full of beautiful black hair (just like his sister did). Kayden absolutely loved him and called him his baby. He's so full of energy, loves his brothers and his sister.
My Rainbow

Elijah was born on August 22, 2014, he was 7 lbs 14.8 oz. He's an absolute blessing. Elijah is my rainbow baby, I was so unsure about having more kids after I lost Kayden, but now I see Kayden picked this little fella to send me. I couldn't imagine my life without him. His smile brightens up my darkest day.