I have handed my son over to surgeons knowing they would stop his heart, and prayed that it would beat again. I have learned more than I ever thought I could. I have cried more than I ever thought possible. I have celebrated victories and milestones that others never have to. I have walked a road I never knew existed. I will walk this road forever. I am a mommy to a CHD Angel ♥ iLy Kayden James

Friday, July 29, 2011

Today's been okay.

Today has been a good day. Of course I miss my little man, but I've got some good support behind me who have kept a smile on my face today <3. I love my friends & fam. They are the most important people in my life. I'm so thankful God has put the most amazing people in my life! I'm going next week to try to get a job through a temp service. I haven't worked since April 2007 I believe. .I know it was when I got preggo with Kayden when I last worked. So that's what 4 years. Wow lol, this will be so much different that what I've been doing the past few years. I hope I can adjust to it. I'm kind of worried though about being around people, I think I may get overwhelmed being around people, sometimes just going to Wal mart makes me feel kind of off..I was going to take Kayden new flowers today but instead we are tomorrow because we have Lexi's heart from his service & we are gunna keep the shape & change the colors that way it'll always be from her. So tomorrow he gets all new flowers <3 YAYY!! And I'm going to eventually attempt to do a Spongebob Arrangement like the flower shops do the hearts lmao! That should be interesting but I think I can..

1 comment:

  1. It might be good for you to get out and work somewhere for a little bit. I am sure it is strange not to do what you once was doing everyday with little Kayden. I know I would be so lost in what to do next. Heck, I am now. LOL. Just remember the good times with him and you will heal from this pain. I am here for you girl...always. xoxo