Strength.Courage.Hope: I am strong because I am weak...

Thursday, August 25, 2011

I am strong because I am weak...

I want to share this quote it's been a favorite of mine for sometime now. And if you have me as a friend on facebook you know I made it my status just now and I have before.
I am STRONG because I am Weak.
I am Beautiful because I know my flaws.
I am a Lover because I am a Fighter.
I am FEARLESS because I have been afraid.
I am WISE because I have been foolish.
& I can Laugh because I've known sadness.

I'm strong because I'm weak: I've made it through so much in the past 3 1/2 years with my son and I have came through it with having a break down from time to time so that made me weak but at the same time made me strong.
I am Beautiful because I know my flaws: I know I'm not perfect. I'm not one of the girls out here who try to be more than what they are. I don't put myself out there to look like a whore like most people my age do. I know I'm not skinny anymore so I don't try to be and wear clothes 2 sizes too small.
I am a Lover because I am a Fighter: I have proven I will fight until the end for someone I love with no end. Which would in any case be my child. I will no longer fight or lose friends over a guy like I have before.
I am FEARLESS because I have been Afriad: My worst fear and a mother's worst fear, losing their child. I was afraid of that it scared me so bad I had nightmares and would wake up crying.
I am WISE because I have been foolish: I would consider mostly everything I ever did in my childhood foolish I did some things I wish I wouldn't had and I did things that I learned from. I wouldn't be who I am now if I wouldn't have done those stupid things.
And I can Laugh because I've known sadness: I had a miscarriage at the age of 17. I lost my 3 year old son...Losing a child, there is no greater sadness on this earth.

I am 23 years old, a single mom to 3 kids here on this earth and 2 kids in Heaven. I have seen things some people haven't seen by the age of 40 or even in their whole entire life. I faced trials at the age of 20 while my old friends were enjoying their college life. While my old friends were enjoying their college graduation I was worried my son would not live through the night. I am 23 years old and I have known pain, I have seen how strong you can be in times where you should fall to your knees and pray for God to take over your life. I have been through more in the last 3.5 years than some have been through in their whole lives. For that I am strong, I AM fearless, and I AM wise. All before the age of 25.

2 comments:

NoletJanuary 2, 2012 at 9:16 PM
I am so sorry for the loss you've suffered, I pray for you and your family, keep strong!
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luvlifeFebruary 7, 2012 at 6:50 AM
I stumbled upon your site by googling something. I want to say how sorry I am for your loss. I started reading and was taken back when I read your Son's name, Kayden Ferris. That is my son's name. However we spell it Caden. I can't imagine the sadness/heartache you have been thru. I went thru alot w/my son as a baby but nothing compared to you. Stay strong and I am sure Kayden is looking down very proud of his Mommy.
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About Me

My name is Misty. I'm 26 years old from Roanoke, VA. I am a single mom to my little ones. I've got 5 kids. Alexis, Kayden, Tavion & Isaiah. Kayden is my little Angel, he went to live with the Angels July 14, 2011 waiting on a heart transplant, he was 3.5 years old. Alexis is my oldest she is almost 9, Tavion is 5, Isaiah is 4, and Elijah is 4 months. I enjoy reading, watching movies, blogging, quiet nights(when possible), and long drives listening to music. I started blogging to tell people about Kayden's journey with a broken heart, now it's about life with him as an Angel & how I deal and you'll also get to know my other little ones. You can also visit Kayden's page at www.kaydenjames.weebly.com or on facebook at www.facebook.com/KaydenJamesCHDAngel

My Family

Little Miss Lexi

Alexis is my first child & my only girl. She was born on February 9, 2006. I found out I was pregnant with Lexi 2 months after I had a miscarriage. I was quite surprised that I was pregnant but I was excited along with scared and nervous. She is the best big sister anyone could ask for. She helps with her brothers & she helps me if I need her to..She is a very smart little girl as well, right now she is in preschool. I can't believe my baby girl is almost in Kindergarten. It's true that time doesn't stop for nothing.

Superman

Kayden took his first breath on December 21, 2007 and took his last breath on July 14, 2011. Kayden was born with a bilateral cleft lip and palate, dilated cardiomyopathy & a displaced tricuspid valve with tricuspid regurgitation. He had 6 surgeries in his 3 1/2 years. He had 3 to complete his cleft lip/palate, pyloric stenosis at a month old, a preauricular cyst removed & open heart surgery on March 17, 2011. He always had a smile on his face no matter how many challenges were thrown his way. I miss my child more than anything in this world. I love Kayden more than words can ever say. I am broken and will never be repaired, he was my life & my heart is shattered since he lost his battle with his CHD. I'll never stop telling his story because people need to be aware of what is possible & I would like to think that Kayden's life will save another child.

Crazy Tavy

My middle boy, Tavion James. Tavion was born on May 13, 2009 at 37 weeks. He was my biggest yet shortest baby born lol! He is a handful right now he is at the age he wants to get into everything. Although he is small still he holds his ground and has an attitude. He is starting to get into the terrible twos which is never fun but we will survive. He's an amazing little boy and always keep us smiling. Tavion has no health problems that we've noticed and hopefully he continues to stay that way.

Superman's Baby

Isaiah James was welcomed into the world on December 16, 2010 at 3:02 a.m. He weighed 7 lbs 11 oz. & was 20 1/2 inches!! He had a head full of beautiful black hair (just like his sister did). Kayden absolutely loved him and called him his baby. He's so full of energy, loves his brothers and his sister.
My Rainbow

Elijah was born on August 22, 2014, he was 7 lbs 14.8 oz. He's an absolute blessing. Elijah is my rainbow baby, I was so unsure about having more kids after I lost Kayden, but now I see Kayden picked this little fella to send me. I couldn't imagine my life without him. His smile brightens up my darkest day.